A Mother’s Love: Son is recovering addict after years of drug abuse

LOCK HAVEN — It’s like waking up from a horrible nightmare.

And praying you won’t have another one.

That’s how one mother said she feels today, years after she began a horrible journey with her son as he battled drug addiction.

That journey started on Father’s Day 2006 when her son called and told her he was hooked on heroin.

“That’s when it all began for me,” she said of the days, months and years of sleepless nights, heartbreak and worry she’s gone through.

That son has come a long way since then and is now a recovering addict.

His mother is happy with his progress, but still worries that he might relapse and put her back into that horrific nightmare.

“You just don’t know what all a parent has to go through. I made it… I was right there beside him all the way. I stuck with him through it all. I’m glad he’s doing so well,” she said.

“I’m trying to trust him, but he has a lot of proving to do to me. I hope he keeps moving forward. He’s got a job and is in the second phase of the county’s drug treatment program,,” she said.

“The good things are still coming. I love him… he’s still my son and I’d do anything for him,” she continued, adding that her son’s turning around of his life has also made a huge impact on their family. His two brothers, who wouldn’t talk to him because of what his drug habit was doing to their mother, have reunited with their brother.

“It happened last Thanksgiving Day. He stood up and apologized to the family for all the things he’d done and all the hurt he’s caused. It’s hard to make amends, but his words were really genuine and our family is whole again,” the mother said.

“I’ve got my family back. And that means the world to me,” the recovering addict, now 41 years old said.

But it hasn’t been quick, easy or without fear and pain.

“I’ve had seven overdoses, been shot, been in jail a half dozen times or more, been in numerous de-tox facilities, made dozens of trips to New Jersey… sometimes two or three times a week for heroin, and thought I was going to die many times,” he said.

It was a roller coaster of ups and downs as he’s relapsed over and over again through the years.

And he remembers the day well when he decided it was time to stop.

It was after an overdose in his mother’s kitchen that sent him to the hospital.

“My mom found me comatose and got me to the hospital in time. I realized how close I came to death. As I lay in the hospital, I thought that there was so much more I could be doing with my life. I chose drugs over success in life.

“My mom was sitting there beside me holding my hand when I woke up. Mom was crying. My mom is my rock. She’s been there for me through thick and thin. I put her through hell, but she was always there for me. I was disgusted with myself.

“My mom asked me why I was doing this to myself. I told her because I was an addict and a junkie. She put her hand on my heart and said, ‘No, you are my son.’ That’s when I quit,” he said.

And that’s when he became involved in the county’s drug treatment court. “Now I’m taking it one day at a time. I’m keeping myself clean. I’m doing pretty good in drug court. They tell you, ‘you dug your hole, now you have to climb out of it step by step.’ And that’s what I’m doing,” he said of his new way of living.

He gives his mother all the credit for where he is today.

“I credit my mom for where I’ve come. I credit her for saving my life that day,” he said.